Dumb

This stuff just seems to get harder and harder.
It's pretty lame.
I made Becca cry. ]:
I'm sorry. I never met to hurt you or anyone else.
I am stupid for saying things that I don't mean or ever meant. It's my fault things are they way they are.

Anyways..
I am going out with a big group of friends and taking an alien picture for Jessika.
I can't wait to talk to Zerias again, he takes everything away.
I love you.

I am surprised

I can't stop biting my tongue when I smile. I never have done that before.
I can't believe you gave me a kiss. I never expected that.
I can't believe I am over all of this. I thought it would be longer.
I can't believe how lucky I am to have Zerias. I am so thank full.
I love my friends.
Thank you all so much.
[:

Just shutup

I don't know anymore.
I just wish things were easier and that I would just stop crying.
I need to grow up.

I miss you babe ]:

Things are a little wierd. I am single again and this summer was not as good as it was before. Everyone agrees, though, that as soon as Brandon is back the summer is going to be loads of fun. We will have all of the group back. [:
Michelle and I are pretty dang good, seeing as we used to hate each other. I miss me bestfriend like crazy though. ]:
and, I love you Zerias
you are my besttesstt

Feel free

I am finally home and it feels so weird. Things are all back to normal. Well, most things. No one is at my house anymore and I am not staying over any ones. I am making plans two minutes before I get out of the house and talking on the phone for a million hours. Texting and arguing with my parents. ]:
I was hoping things would be a bit different. I have only been back for just over 12 hours, we will see how things go. I really just want to hang out with John or just some one to take my mind off of everything. So, feel free to ask to make plans. [:
Things are too confusing and messed up. I want to end everything but then something says (my mom) I should just keep trying. What Michelle says is right, though.
akljk;dfjalksdfjasdf. I'm so screwed up.

Coming home

Things are loads better. Cody and I are such a wierd couple. He deserved everything though in the end. ]:
I come home on the 23th. I don't want to. I hope I get to hang out with some one to keep my mind off of all of it.
gaah
that's all.

I want to leave

I haven't wrote in my blog in a while.
I'm in Germany
I want to be home
That's all

That's all

My hair is black. Zerias is my only rock right now. Josh is a huge help without knowing. I don't know where things are going. It's all shit.
That's pretty much it.

Change

I want to dye my hair again. I am not sure how, though. My hair is so normal and I don't like it at all. It's boring and I don't want to be like everyone else. Blah
Anways, today was pretty fun. I went to Warwick Castle. It was pretty good. The steps were really steep and spiral and the haunted house made me scream like 10 times. I am so lame. Tomorrow we are planning on going to Stone Henge. That is going to be a lot of fun, as well.
When I got home I had ramen and found out my clothes are here. Hell yeah, bonus. Ha!
I get to see Cody on Friday, as well.

Cody Cody Cody

I watched Because I Said So yesterday. It was a really good movie. I thought about Cody then entire time. I can't wait to watch a movie with him again. After that we all went to bed. Amanda and I talked until 1 about everything. In the end I wanted to call Cody so bad. I thought he might be asleep though, so I never did. Then I woke up at 10:15, and stayed in bed until 11:30 just thinking about him. I am pretty sad, huh? I have been thinking about him so much. I am so happy to have him. My husband is amazing.
Anyways, tomorrow I am going to Cadburys World and on Thursday we are planning on going to Stone Henge. It's going to be fun, I hope. Then, on Friday I go to Germany! I can't wait at all. I'm hella excited.

Mm, that's all.

My cousin is finally over. She is really sweet. She noticed Amy straight away. She completely walked past me. My mom pointed me out. She turned around and her eyes went all wide,"That's Bethany? You look completely different!", It was really funny. Apparently my face is completely different. I don't really know.
Today is the fourth of July. John still hasn't called me so I have know clue how that is going down. I guess I just have to find him. I also get to see everyone tonight. I am looking forward to it. My cousin will probably be hanging with me. It's will be cool.
7 DAYS [: until I see Cody. I am oober excited. I can't wait to see him.


Mm, That's all.

I wish too much

Today is so blah. I can't wait for the wrest of my family to come home, and tomorrow. It's going to be a full house.
I wish everyone would just get along. I wish Taylor was still here. I wish Cody lived her, as well. I wish fights never happened. I wish I didn't have to try so hard. I wish my parents understood. I wish I met Katie. I wish everyone would ask me instead of listening to everyone else. I wish I could listen to what I want and dress how I want with out someone complaining. I wish Zerias lived here and I could go to him when ever I wanted. I wish I new how to act when I am talking to Sammy and Becca. I wish Michelle and Bloo weren't so difficult and rude. I wish people would realise I am not perfect. I wish I was in 9th grade. I wish I never lived here. I wish I could just give up. I wish things weren't so hard. I wish I could just enjoy myself. I wish I never had to miss. I wish I wasn't so caring. I wish I never had to give up. I wish things weren't so fucking confusing.
Oh well


That's all I guess

9 Days

Lately, things are not going the greatest. My dad had a go at me and said I wasn't going to Germany because of my room being messy. The reason being I was rushing to go see Taylor for the last time and I threw my clothes on the ground trying to find something decent. My mom has been even more picky on how the house looks because my cousin is coming. My dad is getting super stressed over little things. It's been pretty stupid.
Also, I hate when people try to start drama over myspace. I have decided I am not going to talk to any drama filled, slutty people. I hate when people act like that. It's so annoying. They really need to learn to grow up.
I feel like a bitch right now. That's great.


Over all, things are getting better. Six months I have been with Cody! We are the perfect couple, haha. I get to see him again in 9 days. I can't wait. My birthday is on the same day as well, the 11th. I am really excited.
Mmm, that's all.