Just for you

I haven't updated in a while. I just saw Becca's comment, and I am sorry I never replied sooner. I am sure I can relate to you on what I was talking about easily and we haven't talked in ages.


I am going to Germany in two weeks again. I see Cody for Valentine's Day! I am so excited. I wish I could see my friends but I can't get everything! that I want. I am not sure what to do for a boy on V-day, but I'll figure something out I am sure. Cody and I are doing really good, and I had a long talk with Kc and we talked about a lot of things I was uncomfortable with. That meant the world to me. I really think Cody and I are going to work this time but I don't want to plan too far ahead.
Oh, and Gus I miss you. You seem to be doing good and I am happy for you.

I saw my shadow next to yours

I feel like I am craving happiness. I have you back and all I am worrying about is loosing you. I feel like I am worrying too much to enjoy what I have. That is all I do, worry worry worry. I want to trust you so bad. How do I gain my trust in you again? I just wish I new that nothing would happen. That everything you said to me you meant, that me loosing all my friends for you was really worth it. I want to know that no matter what everything you tell me is nothing less then the truth. I wish I just knew. I want to talk to someone about all of this but who would understand? I mean, I know there is people who went through what I have, but not many people understand both of us. I just want to figure this all out and talk it through but we have talked and talked but for some reason I feel like there is still some things that I need to say. I need to calm down. I don't know how to figure this out.