Here we go again

Here's the truth. I lied every single time it asked if I have ever been in Love in a survey. I don't know why, but it's like I just don't want to admit to myself that I lost love. That it went away, died. I want to be that one person who has never lost anyone. I think about this a lot and I always end up with maybe it's because I never lost you. I still love you, I still care..want. I never lost anything. I still have you deep down inside my heart you are still mine. I don't even care if you hate every single cell in this body of mine. I don't care about any of that. I just care about you as a person and what you gave me so long ago. The most pathetic thing of all of this is that you never pop in my head everyday, it's more like you just never left. It's been four months yesterday, move on. I just feel all hiden and pathetic but I don't care. And most of all, I don't care about what those girls say. They are just talk. I care about you and most of all I care about me. I have a choice of who I want.

Over Over Ov3r

Tonight you guys were beautiful. Everyone was. I am so happy with how things turned out.
LOL! I just couldn't stop laughing. I LOVE! how they talk about me so much. My friend noticed it, too. They just go on and on and on and on. IMMATURE?! IMMATURE?! Yeah..you have no clue. I honetly don't like what you have become. Sometimes people need to just take there own advice. No one likes it.
I have had an amazing past few weeks. I have realised a lot. My friends are the most amazing people in the entire world. I am so happy with my life.
The turkey trot turned out pretty good. 108 teachers and kids. Good job. Joey and JT got 1st and 2nd place. Good job you guys. Jessica was screaming on the top of her lungs, "COME ON COME ON COME ON!" I couldn't stop laughing. You guys really did great though.
I am also superly duperly excited for tonight. Kiki is going to have the best party in her life. Lol. I am so excited! My hair is in curlers right now.
Oh, and I am who I want to be. Haha!

Every little bit

On top of being a vegetarian I am not drinking soda. Every little helps, yeah?
This week was interesting but a good one. Today was a lot of fun. [;
I think I am going to watch Bambi.

Hatred

All my anger is coming out. It's overflowing on those who cause it. It's terrible.

This is new

I work tonight and I'll most likely go out after that. I think it is sort of sad how much I enjoy work. It's a lot of fun though and you get money and chill with friends and things happen and Andy and Luke and Owen and all that put together, you begin to like it. Tomorrow I should be going to London and the day after and the days following should be Beckrow.
I am so happy for once. I don't feel like I am trying it's just that I am avoiding what normaly bothers me all the time. I'm erasing it and I don't care about what anyone says.
Yeah..[:

Smile for me

Monday was amazing. Boys are amazing. You are amazing.
<3

I'm so good at this

What did I do?