Here we go again

Here's the truth. I lied every single time it asked if I have ever been in Love in a survey. I don't know why, but it's like I just don't want to admit to myself that I lost love. That it went away, died. I want to be that one person who has never lost anyone. I think about this a lot and I always end up with maybe it's because I never lost you. I still love you, I still care..want. I never lost anything. I still have you deep down inside my heart you are still mine. I don't even care if you hate every single cell in this body of mine. I don't care about any of that. I just care about you as a person and what you gave me so long ago. The most pathetic thing of all of this is that you never pop in my head everyday, it's more like you just never left. It's been four months yesterday, move on. I just feel all hiden and pathetic but I don't care. And most of all, I don't care about what those girls say. They are just talk. I care about you and most of all I care about me. I have a choice of who I want.