Feel free

I am finally home and it feels so weird. Things are all back to normal. Well, most things. No one is at my house anymore and I am not staying over any ones. I am making plans two minutes before I get out of the house and talking on the phone for a million hours. Texting and arguing with my parents. ]:
I was hoping things would be a bit different. I have only been back for just over 12 hours, we will see how things go. I really just want to hang out with John or just some one to take my mind off of everything. So, feel free to ask to make plans. [:
Things are too confusing and messed up. I want to end everything but then something says (my mom) I should just keep trying. What Michelle says is right, though.
akljk;dfjalksdfjasdf. I'm so screwed up.