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This is like the fourth one in two days, but I really like writing these. I don't think that many people read them anyways. I like it like that.
I put my name down on the list. I have to remember 309 and 358. That is going to be a while. They are apparently firing some people, though. Anyways, while I was out I met up with my friend who I met the day before I went to Germany. He is brand new and really nice. He asked how the trip went and I just gave a short, simple outline with no complaining or put-downs. He said his opinion on it and we quickly changed the subject. He made me feel like I mattered, though, and that every single thing I was saying wasn't pissing him off. Not many guys are like that. It felt really, really good. I am happy that I was one of the first people to meet him.
I am really happy, and I feel whole again. I also feel like I am not a toy, anymore. I am not used to keep you occupied when others can't. I am not relying on anyone that I need to live. I have my friends but they aren't my life line. I admit that I miss having a boyfriend, but who wouldn't [..meaning girls]. I like the idea of having someone by my side, literally, though. I don't want someone too controlling. I am not complaining or trying to put anyone down. I am glad that I went through what I did. I grew sooooooo much. [: