I'm lame

I guess I spoke too soon. That is alright, I suppose. I want to take Joe's advice because I know what is right. It's just that there is more then just that. I am relying on false hope and I know it.
I wish I was smart enough to go with what I know. I know I am doing the dumb thing but I do it anyways. I know that it is wrong and that I am being a hypocrite about it all but I do it anyways. I am being used and I know it, but I allow it anyways. That's real smart of me, huh?
I need help or something.