Where is your mind?

It scares me so much to hear about you not eating just to see me. I am the cause of someone starving. How great am I? I love every single cell in that body of yours, and I care about you as if you were mine. Now eat! Okay? /:
I really am done with this whole impressing stuff. Gus has shown me that I can be myself and yet someone can love my 100% for me. I never understood that until now. I don't mess up with him, I don't argue, I don't do anything. I am doing nothing but be myself and I haven't been so happy in a long time. Thank you Babe.
I am sort of scared, again. I want to see the shreds of him, but I don't want to watch it completely. I know it's wrong but it's just so wrong. Confusing much? I wish I never cared about you, or that you hated me or something. It makes things so much easier. I made up my mind though. I have what I want <3.
I have realised that Eddie means a lot to me, as well. He is like my older brother that I tell everything too. I tell how every single thing that pops in my head. He understands it no matter how confusing it is, [normaly:], and doesn't blow up like I'm used to. He's so calm and fun and understanding. He's going to make me fat with sharing those smoothies and icecreams though..haha. Or how he asks people for there numbo's for me, but they wont give it? I got it in the end. I went to sleep right after. I went to sleep seconds from Gus. :D He's sort of like gus.


Gus is just too amazing, though. [:
Freak-much? HA [:
Gus says:
maddi asked me what I'd do.
Gus says:
if I saw you and you weren't as great as I thought you were.
shut up beth. says:
hmm
shut up beth. says:
what did you say?
Gus says:
haha.
Gus says:
uh oh.
Gus says:
=P
Gus says:
I said.
Gus says:
There's no way she won't be as great as I think. She'll be the best. maybe a little shy at first but I'd spend the whole day with her because it's fucking beth. My jelly and my dollface. The girl I look forward to talking to everyday and look forward to seeing more than anyone.
shut up beth. says:
: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
shut up beth. says:
i want o scream of happiness : D
shut up beth. says:
akdjfak;df Gus! you are SO AMAZING
shut up beth. says:
and good to me, and
shut up beth. says:
everything
shut up beth. says:
I promise to try my hardest to be as possbley good to you as I can
shut up beth. says:
and I am sure the second ill see you i might be a little quiet on the talking
shut up beth. says:
but ill give you the BIGGGEST hug EVER [:
shut up beth. says:
cause i cant watit o see you
shut up beth. says:
you make me have butterflies
shut up beth. says:
and os happy : D
shut up beth. says:
aldfkla;sdj <3!
shut up beth. says:
GUS : D