Gus is always right

I can't stop crying. I am balling so hard it hurts.

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Gus was right. Asking him was just going to get me hurt. I do something because I am sick of seeing the same things and getting upset and just trying to keep things alright.
I don't really understand. What was I supposed to do? Ignore it. I guess I realy should of, it's just that it's hard.
I don't like how half the time I never know how to react. Do I email her back, him back? I am just going to try to ignore it. I don't understand at all why they did what they did when I was trying as hard as I could not to be mean and I had no intentions to in the first place.

Dear World,
Austin said that today he should hopefully come on base. I can't wait to see him, again. I don't have to work this week so I'm really happy about that. It also means that next week no eye appointment or Godparent. We also have monday of so that means more time to hang out. I think I am going to tell him about what happened today and see what his reply is. I've never opened up to him yet and I have to start somewhere.
That's all.