Once again

honey, don't give yourself away to boys!!! God loves you and it breaks his heart! You might think I'm crazy, and I'm sorry if you do, but I am totally serious. I know he's there and he's watching out for you.
I understand that you care, although I don't know who you are. I just don't understand why you are telling me I am giving myself away to boys. It's been two months, when you haven't had a boyfriend for a long time, someone likes you, and you like them, why not give it a go? Austin doesn't ask for anything, doesn't try to do anything I'm not ready for, and he isn't a jerk to me. I don't love him or any of that stuff, I only like him and I'm glad he's my boyfriend. We are cute and I'm happy with how things are. I don't rely on him that much, if at all, and I get so nervous telling him things. I can barely open up to him because I get that nervous. If God has a problem when me being happy and moving on, then I don't know what to do to make him happy. I don't look at God in that way though. God is with me with all of my decisions, and there to get me through the wrong ones.
Thank you a lot though. I understand you care.

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Pretend it's not forever
I'll pull myself together
I'll say that I'll forget her
I'll breathe

And I'll say she never hurt me
And look at it as learning
And laugh about the good and the bad

Because I will live forever
We don't belong together
I know I'll feel better
One day when I can make it through

Counting down
Till you mess around
And I know you can't ever change
When I'm trembling
Thrown overboard
When I'm ready to relive the past

I won't forget you
I'm not gonna let you win
I'm tired of the lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change

I was thinking about things really hard last night. I was almost in tears about it all. I don't like how it just all comes back, all at once. It's disapeared then all of the sudden that is all I can think of. I don't really know what to do.