Swing to the side

Dear World,
Good luck on finishing your homework, Gus. Don't stress yourself out. You don't deserve anything like that. Gus was amazing last night. He made me realise that I am scared of everything and I need to be..stronger? I guess you could say. I need to stop thinking of how things turn out and just do it for once.
I talked to Sammy and Becca, or left them a comment anyways. That, for some reason, meant a lot to me. Between now and Friday I either have to sort things out with my mum or sister. I am taking it one at a time. Sunday should be the hardest.
How do you tell someone you miss them when you are too afraid that they will just blow you off and not even reply. I don't want to be a coward and I'm sort of getting sick of saying I'm happy when it's really obvious that I miss how things were.
This is the most open I have been with this in a long time. I hope I didn't make a mistake. I wish I didn't look at the outcome, it's just so hard not too. I will stop with Gus' help. He works miracles, I swear. The hardest part is being open that I love you. I love you.
The End